What if I Start to tell the whole truth about myself?

Throughout all my entire life I always was labeled as a "liar" (sometimes comparing me with my old man) and everyone attacks me with that statement. Specially mom and my girlfriend. every day in my life, every moment, every word i say is a lie, no matter what i say to defend my position. NO, I'm a liar, at everyone's eye. They are the holy keepers and defenders of the truth.

What a bunch of hypocrite assholes. FUCKING HYPOCRITE ASSHOLES!!!! Everyone lies, even the most respectful and distinguished POS (piece of shit), everyone lies, but this hypocrites point me with their accusing fingers, forgeting the others are pointing at themselves.

After the last discussion, my mind tried to understand how a perfect day ended in a total mess. My actions brought me to this situation, but a demon inside of me started to whisper to my mind "why don't you start to tell the truth to everyone, no matter what they say?" 

"Do it, fueled by hate, anger in your eyes and feel no remorse. start to scream, burn everything to the ground, blast those motherfuckers because they lied not only to you, they lied to everyone, they took everything of you to make their lives, leaving you the job nobody wanted to do. They put you on the ground, when they put you loads YOU MUST NOT HAVE TO CARRY, like you're Jesuschrist "

I'm gonna start to tell the whole truth about myself:

I'm tired of everything. Tired of all the shit i've been through all this years. Tired of being "the life saver" of everyone, the one who have to sacrifice to save others who give me nothing, tired of been beaten over and over, by family, so called friends, colleagues, girlfriend. tired of shut my voice, when everyone attack me even if I have the truth in my hands, just to "keep the house in peace", tired of being alone when the shit gets real and see no retribution of no one. tired of crying alone, when no one see me, tired of make mistakes and bad choices, to have faith in something who left me in hours of need, tired of pray to someone who doesn't listen. Tired of protect, tired of defend, tired of taking the shots, taking the hits, tired of being put to trial just to prove their points and i can't reply them the way they deserve... in just a couple of words: TIRED OF LIVE sacrificing my life for all, and get nothing from them. 

I did everything told me to do, but ain't got nothing good. I'm sick and tired of live for others, giving up in my own life. 

I only did what I thought was truly right. I don't lie, i don't provide information to people who doesn't need it.

I don't belong here to this world, I don't belong to this time, i don't deserve anything. Maybe it's time to put an end to this shit i've been thru.